Faith

So much has been going on the last couple of weeks. And the only way that I have been able to get through this is by Faith alone. I have to have Faith that everything in the end will be ok-because it is God's Will.

Strength

Somebody that I love with my whole heart is dealing with something that will forever change their lives and the lives of everybody close to them. I pray for strength to help this person get thru this life changing experience. I need to have Faith that all things happen for a reason and even though we may not see the good of it yet, I have to have Faith that this will all work out for the best. I need to keep my eyes on The Lord always, praise Him everyday, lay my problems at His feet and know that He will take care of everything because this is His plan.

Tired

I am so tired. Dealing with the death of a loved one really takes it's toll on a person. I can't imagine how my mom & her siblings are feeling. I know how I feel as a grandchild-empty, lost, & so very, very sad. I'm so Thankful that I have such a loving & supporting husband who is allowing me to have this time to grieve and deal with it the way I need to. The church service today was so wonderful. I love my little country church! It was dedicated entirely to Granny Carrie. The church members there today that are not family prayed that my family that was grieving would find peace & understanding and reassured us that God is there for us and Oh what a celebration they are having in Heaven! I can just imaging Granny Carrie getting to see her parents, siblings, and children who have gone on before her. That is the only thing that is helping me keep it all together-knowing where she is and who she's with!

Very sad today. My wonderful 94 year old granny passed away early this morning. On one hand I'm so very happy because I know where she will be spending eternity and I know one day I will see her again. But my selfish side is so sad and heartbroken. When I go to Church on Sunday she won't be sitting (sometimes sleeping-haha) in the pew in front of me. She won't be there to get "sugars" from my boys. The best way to honor her is to try to live my life the way she did hers! Loving the Lord, Loving her family and Loving Life!

Starting Over

Just like starting over with a new blog....since it has only been since June that I did this last. What has been my problem? Alot has been going on that's for sure. I've been working part-time hours temporarily for a "sister" company of where I worked before. It has been somewhat challenging to me to go into a new place and not have as much responsibility as what I was use to. Some days I have nothing to do, but if I tell them that they may let me go. I'm still looking for work, sending out my resume every week! Finally some things are starting to happen. I had an interview yesterday for a part-time job who would be very flexible with me concerning the kids, but the pay not that great. I have a 2nd. phone interview this evening for a full time job that will start out as a temp. to hire and then after 90 days (hopefully) they would hire me. I guess I will decide what to do after this interview. I really need to go somewhere where I can be steadily busy throughout the day. I feel my brain turning to mush a little more every day!

Well, last nights blog had me determined to do something with my day today. I did take a 1/2 hour walk around the neighborhood at 6:00 this morning. Had Cameron to the orthodontist by 8:00. Then came home to mow the grass, do dishes, dust, vacuum, and pick up living room, dinner and 4-H meeting. Not too bad. I just cannot get past this anxious feeling that I am having that something is about to happen-something bad......don't know what, don't know when, but I just feel it. I pray every morning noon and night for the security of Scott's job. I pray for the health of my family and friends and their family and friends. Is HE listening? I just don't know.....and that scares me the most.

Start of a New Week

As of right now, I am bound and determined to get my butt motivated tomorrow morning! As of right now, I plan on getting up with Scott in the morning and go for a brisk walk and be done before 7:00am. As of right now, I plan on watching what I eat-starting tomorrow. I have pigged out all weekend long, I'm freakin' miserable, and I only have myself to blame. As of right now, it all sounds like a grand plan......we'll see how it sounds at 5:30am!

BFF

Was so glad that I got to spend a few hours with Kathy and her husband Todd today! I miss her so much so any time that I get to spend with her, I will! and Todd, the tomato war is on!!

mooooo......

This is a cute picture of all the dairy feeder calves out at the barn tonight. One of those is Clay's.....couldn't tell you which one!

Relay for Life

Friday night I spent the night at the fairgrounds participating in the Relay for Life. Attached is a pic of me & Chad the next morning....I guess someone from the newspaper took this and it was online. Obviously I had no idea my picture was being taken! and I have no idea who the guy is.....his spot was next to ours and all I know is that he hula-hooped all the time!

Week One

Well, it is now Friday and it has been a "week" since the kids have been out of school. I think we all had a melt-down at one point or another today. Cameron woke up screaming at me when he didn't like what I had to say to him, Clay didn't like what I had to say to him either. Chad didn't want to quit playing with his toys when it was time to leave and run errands today so after we went round and round I took his toys and put them in a trash bag.....he will get them back when he earns it.....that could take awhile. Things have calmed down now. Clay is mowing a friends yard, Cameron is outside playing with some friends, and Chad has found some different toys to play with.

Tonight I will be spending the night at the fairgrounds doing the Relay for Life for the American Cancer Society. Our 4-H club will be doing it with another team. The plan is to stay up all night with the kids in the club, but our camper is out there in case I need a little nap:) I'm sure it will take me all weekend to recuperate!

day 1

Well, I have survived the first day of summer break. Chad talks too much, Cameron pouts too much, and Clay sulks too much! No, it really wasn't that bad. I think we will go to the library tomorrow and see what kind of summer programs they have for kids lined up this year. Cameron thinks he is too old for this, but he will go :)

I had to take Cameron to soccer tryouts tonight. Even though he is on the team, he still needs to show up. Hopefully we will have enough boys for a decent team, since we are moving up an age group in the fall.

I'm still here....

Wow, I guess it has been almost a whole month since I've been on this thing....I've got to get better at this!
Tomorrow starts my first day of summer break with the boys. This is a first for me and them! I'm hoping things go well. I really don't want to hear Chad and Cameron arguing and bickering over every little thing all day long. I will have to be creative to keep them each occupied. I'm not worried about Clay. He will be working and hanging out with friends all summer.
I've been doing a few online applications here and there. I think if I could find something part-time I could live with that. I always worry that the money will run out. I just have to keep the faith that the Good Lord will provide, and so far he has! AMEN

another week gone by......

Another week gone by. Not much happened this week, mostly rain. The weekend turned out Beautiful, though. I got my garden planted so that is out of the way. This week I need to concentrate on straightening out a problem with Chad's plastic surgeon and my health insurance. Since my insurance changed first of the year, he is no longer in network. I'm in the process of applying for BCMH, but I have to sign up for SSI and Medicaid, be denied for those before I can apply for the BCMH......I hate all the red tape and all the running around that needs to be done! In the mean time, Chad's mouth keeps getting worse:(

A Good Day.

Had a good week, had a Great Day. I got to have lunch with my good friend Michelle from work this past week. I'm glad that we can still keep in touch and stay close-she's one of my favorites from there!

After church this morning I had the chance to have lunch with my BFF Kathy and her family! It made my day. I miss her so much. But whenever we do see each other or talk to each other we just pick up where we left off last time! It was good to laugh at old pictures and have her daughter make fun of her 80's hair-do from my wedding! I didn't get any pictures but she did and maybe she will put them on her blog when she gets a chance.

Scott and Clay worked their BUTTS off tilling a garden for me. I haven't had a garden in years. Scott has refused to do it because I never pulled weeds out of it. I think since I am not working there will be a better chance for me to keep up on it now. I promised him I would not fall behind in my weed-eating!!

4-H is in the air!

We left the house around 7:30 this morning to make the annual trek to go buy hogs with the 4-H Club. Cameron is the only one taking a hog this year since Clay is taking a feeder calf. There was a caravan of 12 cars (I think). We (the club) ended up buying 22 hogs total. Cameron chose his and named her Missy......If all goes well, Missy will be in our freezer come August. I know it sounds cruel, but that's just how it goes:)

Chad

Chad (+) Glasses = A pretty cute kid.

He seems to be adjusting fairly well with wearing glasses. He looks just too darned cute!

I got up this morning and went to Grandma Carrie's for breakfast. Mom was there and it was a nice visit. Grandma is 93 now and not as good as she use to be. I need to take advantage of any time that I can spend with her. She can still make me laugh! I think Chad and I will be back for a visit on Friday after he gets his eyes checked.
BTW-eggs, bacon, biscuits and gravy.....does it get any better than that?

Easter Egg Hunt

with my family we always try to have Easter on Saturday.....have a dinner and Easter Egg Hunt. This year we had a record of 134 eggs for 6 kids to look for. Clay had 2 special eggs to look for.

Mom and dad surprised me with a birthday celebration for me. It was great to spend the day with my family. I know I am so blessed.

more from Florida.....

On Wednesday we went to Busch Gardens. I think all of Florida and then some were there that day. It was way too crowded to really have a good time-almost a waste of money. The best time had by all was the day we spent at Cocoa Beach. We have decided next vacation will only be at the beach-no amusement parks, no crowds, just the BEACH!

More pics from Florida

On Tuesday we went to the Kennedy Space Center. It was a little cool, but still a nice day. We didn't get there until around 2:00, so we didn't get to see all that we could. Saw a very cool IMAX movie about the international space station (in 3-D)

FLORIDA!!

After a long drive we finally arrived and was able to spend some time around the pool! It was humid and high in the upper 80's today so it felt right nice!

Hoppy Easter!

Chad's preschool class had an Easter Egg Hunt today. It was too much fun and I loved the ears!

Busy Days!

These next few days are going to be B-U-S-Y! Two days until we leave for Florida! That means laundry, clean house, clean out fridge, drop one dog and guinnea pig off to mom, pick up rental car, do more laundry and pack. In between all that I need to go to a school party today, feed the calf (Clay has to work tonight), soccer practice tonight and what ever else may pop up! I guess it's a good thing I'm not working:)
And Happy Birthday to my very good friend Carla today! Fourty and Fabulous!!

Animals......

Clay's calf for 4-H came home today. He has named him Paisley......He is a cutie!

Chad was brave enough to get on my nieces mule today.....Daisy May doesn't seem to mind Chad at all!

Good Friends......Good Times

I got to spend Friday evening with 8 girls that I graduated high school with! It was so much fun and so good to see everyone again! I am so blessed to have such good friends after all these years! I can't wait until we can do it again. Attached are a few pictures, but I didn't get a chance to get a group picture on my camera-though there are a few floating around!

Clay....

I haven't said much about Clay so here is an update! He is working at Lone Star as a Host/busboy. He also just got another job at a local pizza place called The Barn. He will be working in food prep......and he is a second generation "Barn" worker-Scott worked there while he was in high-school! Next year Clay is going to go to CTC (Career Technical Center). He has been accepted into the Culinary Arts program-he wants to be a chef. So both jobs that he has right now will be beneficial to him. We had dinner with him at Lone Star today just before his shift. Attached is a picture of him and Chad....little brother loves his big brother!

Soccer!

Big Soccer Tournament this weekend! Even though Cameron has been playing soccer all winter long in-door I'm so excited that the new season is starting. It's nice to see all the other "soccer parents" again. We were in Middletown all day today and have to be back in the morning for one last game. Even though they lost both games it was still fun to watch them play!

Not much else is going on. Just counting down to Spring Break.....2 weeks till Florida!

What a Great Day

Today's weather was near perfect! After church me and the boys played outside. Chad likes to hook his bike up to the camper and he pretends that he is pulling it. Cameron and I have decided to have a garden this year. We planted seeds in cups today. Hopefully we will have some good plants to put in the ground.

Mom and Granny Carrie came over for dinner this afternoon. I was excited that Granny Carrie came over since she has been sick and not feeling well. Yesterday was her first time out of the house in 6 weeks, except for doctor's appointments. After dinner we had a game of corn-hole. Mom and Cameron beat me and Scott by only 1 point!

see.....told you......I meant to say when the kids get on the BUS......oh boy-my brain is mush!

Just Julie

Well I've done it! I have actually created my own blog. I enjoy reading the blogs that a few of my good friends have. I hope mine can be as enjoyable! I'm not the brightest when it comes to computers, but I've decided to go for it! I'm hoping I can post everyday since I'm not working right now. I have nothing else to do with me time-yeah right! If I'm not called back to work soon I think I may get used to this. The luxury of going back to sleep when the kids get on the best is the best! Of course when I do I feel guilty, like I should be cleaning something or doing laundry or going to the gym to exercise (my least favorite).

I've had enough excitement for the night with creating this blog! I think I will try to get Chad to bed so he won't be a little grumpy devil when I wake him up for church in the morning!